SMOKESCEEN

 I lifted the drapes...they seemed like a a smokescreen which made me live in a false world that nothing more will go wrong.I was coached in my islamic world that once your spouse dumps you for another...your kids are the men.hahhah...no they became men for others not me.Im the sacrificial lamb n crucified Christ!

my christmas tree

As I found myself going away...further n further away from my beloved sons ,into an abyss.

I pulled out my gift..a Christmas tree.and Hola! it had lights n every kind of decoration .I was so happy,it was like giving birth to a new life,like i did 25 long years ago.

I spent my day loving it n decorating it.So much joy in finding a companion..i silent one who doesnt hurt back.I observed how it lit up my living room and my eyes.I chocked with emotions of different kinds....one side my sons leaving me,other side a tre which tells me ive not done anything wrong to send away my beloveds.

i find so much solace in it.I feel like a child

regards to all my ones who celebrate ,

Yaz